I'd say dealing with the emotional aspect of having Herpes is probably a million times worse than any of the actual outbreaks I've dealt with outside of the initial one. Every time I hear a snide joke about it or see a shitty remark online somewhere I feel like it's been said to me personally- like someone is pointing a finger at me. I hate the lack of an awareness campaign, I hate having to mention directly after that statement that said awareness campaign should be about awareness- not fearmongering, I hate that I feel like there is no cure coming because of the social stigmas attached to this stupid virus (I am very aware that's probably not true and even a bit irrational but it doesn't stop me from feeling that way.)
I hope everyone is well!!!It's almost been 2 years since I got this... how crazy is that?
My government professor likes to ramble and go off on tangents, usually inappropriate ones. I spend most of each class gritting my teeth. Anyway, he was talking about how Americans feel about being taxed. He said Americans dislike taxes so much, that if they were offered a choice between paying taxes and having herpes, that it would be this horrible conflict and it would take them a long time to decide. I was like, WTF? It seems to me that this attitude just reinforces the stigma. I have had herpes since I was 18. I HATE when people around me make comments like this. I want to speak out against them, to say that it isn't this horrible thing that everybody thinks it is. But I don't feel brave enough to come out to people I don't know, especially when they say things that demonstrate their feelings of contempt and disgust. I have also had a coworker yell at me for allowing someone to use the employee restroom because "OMG what if they had HERPES!!!!11!!!1" Then she grabbed a can of industrial disinfectant and cleaned the toilet. I had just gotten over my most recent outbreak so I was still dealing with my own internal feelings. I guess I am frustrated by people's lack of education. cross-posted